Day 14- Half Way!

I am excited. I am halfway through the GULP experiment! I am excited in the best way possible too. I am excited because I can't wait to see how much I grow in the next two weeks, not just because I want to hurry up and have a beer already. (Although that will be such a delicious treat).

I woke up today feeling calm for the first time since I can remember. Yes, I can still feel hints of sadness and anger and guilt in the back of my brain. If I wanted to, I could easily access these emotions and wallow in them. But for once, I am not letting them take over and dominate every single thought in my head. I am becoming more and more at peace with the unknown and finding something natural and orderly about the chaos in my life. It's amazing to me how loosening your grip on life's reins can actually make you feel more in control of your journey.

I still have so much to figure out and so many decisions to make, but I honestly feel like a new improved version of myself. I am loving little things like my new library card. I just ate a handful of trail mix that was so good I'll probably put some of it in the salad I make tonight. I am really enjoying recording my new album and love collaborating with my producer Alex. I was in the studio today, LOOKING at the sound wave my voice makes on the track and I almost fell over with the wonder of technology. There on the screen is a little mark I'm making on the world. It's awesome. Things I've taken for granted are all of a sudden knocking me off my feet. I even started toying around with the idea of writing an uplifting song for a change. A song without a "you." A song just for me.

That's all for now. Off to search the library for Catcher in the Rye...it's about time I read that book.